Worried......

I am seriously worried about my husband. He works too much, sleeps less than he should, doesn't eat right, and really just spreads himself too thin. On top of all this, he takes two daily medications for high blood pressure, has colitis, and stomach issues. The past two days have been really hard on him. He has been exhausted and isn't sleeping well. It's like he takes a few deep breaths then a few shallow ones......then his left arm, then left leg jerks/twitches. This has caused him very sleepless nights. I stayed awake for several hours just watching him and listening to him breathe because it scared me so bad. I know men just brush things off, but I am really scared that it might be his body trying to warn him of something else. I may be blowing things out of proportion, I sure hope so! I hope it's just from a few exhausting days and nothing more serious. I love him more than life itself and I constantly worry for him. I suppose that's a wife and mom's job....to worry. I guess we'll see.

Later ya'll.

Carpal Tunnel

I always knew surgery involved pain, but you never know how much until you are going through it. I, at this point in my life, consider myself somewhat of an expert in the "surgery department". The surgery I had on the 15th of May was the 6th surgery in the past 8 yrs. I know...those odds don't seem very good!! My first surgery was an emergency C-section that brought my beautiful Bethany into this world....what a joyous day!!! However, in the surgery department, it seems to have gone downhill from there. Next came the removal of my gall bladder in June of 02. This was a horrible surgery!! I have much sympathy for anyone that has to have this procedure done! It's not the surgery itself....it's what follows! I will spare you the details...just know it was the WORST surgery of my life!!! I had a car accident that brought on surgeries 3, 4, and 5. They were all knee surgeries (02, 03, and 05). Since 2005 I have been surgery free UNTIL (that's a HUGE word) this year. During our move, I noticed pain and swelling in my hands. This was horrible pain that would wake me from a dead sleep at night. I had no clue what was going on!! I tried everything....tylenol, advil, aspercreme, and many other over-the-counter remedies. I also tried ice and heat...NOTHING WORKED!!!! Nothing really even helped!!! At this point, I know it is time to face the doctor with my problem. After speaking with me, he advises me I will need to see a specialist for a procedure called an EMG because I have Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. CARPAL TUNNEL????? Hellooooooooo I have never done manual labor!!! I have never worked in a factory!!!! I have worked in a comfy, cozy office all my life! How in the world did I get Carpal Tunnel???? I find out from the doctor that does the EMG that a main part of this could be hereditary. The way my wrist are structured....it makes me very susceptible for this condition. After telling me the Carpal Tunnel is severe in my left hand and moderately severe in my right hand......I am now told surgery is once again in my future! Skip forward to the day of my surgery...... I am feeling pretty good after surgery. I am thinking this is going to be a breeze....NOT!!!!! Boy was I wrong! This has been one of the most painful surgeries I have had! I think the main reason being the stitches in your hand pull. It makes it really uncomfortable to move your hand in certain positions. Thank goodness those stitches are coming out in 3 days! I can not wait!!!!!! I am thinking I will wait until the right hand is as bad off as the left hand was before I go through this procedure again. I know it's in my future for another surgery....but I will see how long I can hold out!!! To anyone needing this procedure: Make sure you have a great support system in place....you WILL need them!! My husband has been absolutely amazing while I have been coping with my hand! To my husband: Thank you so much for taking care of me! ....You are amazing & I love you more with each day that passes!! With all that said....I think it's time to rest my hand being the stitches are still in!!! Have a great day!!!!

Update....

Okay, so Talladega was AWESOME!!!! That's the only way to describe it!!! I think we are going back in the fall! We had a blast! There was an wreck on the very last lap that happened right in front of us and threw the car into the catch fence in the section next to us!! Needless to say it was a race I will never forget!!! I am soooo glad to be home now! I missed Bethany terribly! She was sad that she didn't get to go with us, but after being there...I really don't think she could handle it! Maybe when she's a little older! It took me a few days to post an update...I had to recover from the weekend..lol. I was so tired, so sunburned, and utterly exhausted. It took everything in me to get Bethany ready for school Monday...lol. I am better now & lovin the memories I have from my first Nascar race!!!! (Thanks to my wonderful hubby!!!!)

Later ya'll!!!

Busy Week......

Today begins the run of a few very hectic days!!! Keith and I are going to Talladega this weekend!!!! I am sooooooooooooo very excited! I have only been to the smaller races (Busch, Nationwide, etc.) so this is AMAZING to me!! I have the next few days to get everything together. We leave out Saturday.....I was told this is so we can experience Talladega the proper way..lol. We will be camping out and enjoying the company of some great friends along the way!!! I am super excited (did I mention that already??? lol)!!!

Sad

I know, I know....there's alway a silver lining in every cloud. Atleast that's what I alway try to teach my child. However, today I'm thinking not so much! About 2 hours ago I met my daughter's biological father at the nearby McDonald's to drop her off for an overnight visit. She doesn't visit him very often, so I guess I should be thankful for that. The last statement does not make my heart hurt any less when she is gone! I think what hurts the most is the fact that she didn't want to go this time. She has made a life here. She loves her new hometown (we moved after Christmas). She has family, friends, a new school, girl scouts, etc. that keep her occupied. Also having to go with him made her miss a birthday party today. Needless to say, she was not in the greatest of moods when I dropped her off. I miss her already. This house is just too quiet without her here!!!

So the husband and I have made MAJOR plans since we are without child this evening!! We are going to the grocery store!!!!! I know, we are such party animals!!! lol. We really don't know what to do without her here! We want to save all the fun stuff for when she gets back (and we really need to go to the grocery....lol). Our world definitely revolves around her! But I think that's the way it's suppose to be!

I am just missing her and had to vent!!! I will be better once the husband gets home in about an hour! Nite to all!

New to this..........

I'm new to this, so bare with me!!!! I will post more later!